It's Monday

I think this whole thing is starting to sink in a little.  In the last couple of days I have noticed a change in the way I look in the mirror.  I was putting lotion on my legs yesterday and noticed that they look a little smaller, too.  When I was at the Mayo Clinic for some appointments on Friday morning I had a whole lot more room in the waiting room chair than I used to have.  This is pretty cool! 

I will have to get a few new clothes this week, because I had a ladies brunch to go to yesterday morning, and realized that I only have 4 shirts and 2 pairs of shorts that I can wear into public right now.  I stood in my closet for a long time hoping that something would appear that would fit me a little better, but no, I had to put on my over sized, cinched up shorts and a shirt that just hangs off of me.  The shirt has elastic at the bottom, but the elastic doesn't even fit anymore.  It just hangs down - it is crazy!  I'm also curious to see what size I am right now.  So, I think that Wednesday when Mary goes to school I will go see if I can't find some inexpensive items to buy for the time being. 

The scale said an amazing 208.6 this morning, which totally blew me away!  Never in my wildest dreams  did I think I would be here this quickly.  I am amazed, and so blessed and thankful that this is happening to me!  I know I am very lucky to have the means to have had this surgery, and I try to remind myself that every time I'm frustrated about food right now.  I don't think I have been this weight since before I was married, which was 11 years ago this Friday, by the way!  Wow that is a long time!  I keep catching Geoff looking at me, which is totally cool!  And Abby is even constantly commenting on my weight loss.  She told me that her dance teacher said the other day that I am getting skinny, and I could tell that she was so proud of that.  That means so much to me that my husband and daughter are proud of the progress I'm making!  I'm also receiving wonderful texts, and emails from a lot of you that are so sweet, and I appreciate it so much - thank you!  My cousin told me the other day on the phone that I even sound skinnier - that cracked me up, and is totally awesome!  Thanks, Nik!

I still definitely have moments of food drama - the brunch I mentioned earlier was pretty hard at the beginning, but after I ate what I could and was full I was fine.  I'm figuring things out, and able to go do things now without worrying so much about what I will eat.  I went to Panera with some fellow dance moms on Saturday morning while the girls were rehearsing and I got a spinach and Swiss souffle - I ate about 3/4 of it and was pretty full.  A few weeks ago I probably would've passed on that opportunity, because the thought of being around all the pastries at Panera gave me major anxiety, but I'm really learning to deal with it.  I wonder what my blog will say a year from now?  I can't wait to find out! 

Rainbows and ponies all around!!  :)  I better go to bed before that changes!