Severe Pain This Morning

I just returned from getting a pedicure and my eyebrows waxed (no that wasn't the severe pain, but it does stinkin hurt), and my pedicure was anything but relaxing.  I haven't had a pedi in over a month, and since that time, like I've stated in a recent blog post, I have found that I have a rear end bone.  Oh my goodness, the chair at the nail salon was painful!  I can't believe it!  I was really in some pain!  You thought this had to do with pain from my surgery didn't you, well it does!  Because the pain I'm feeling in my rear end is due to the weight I have lost, which is due to the surgery I had!  How do you skinny people do it?  Sitting down for a long period of time is no longer enjoyable for me.  I miss the days when I could sit, and sit, and sit, and sit without so much as a twinge in my rear!  Now I can't sit for very long without it feeling like my rear is going to fall off, or feeling like the bone must be protruding from my rear!  Even siting on the toilet is painful now - I know, I know, TMI, but seriously, some toilets hit me in the wrong spots on my buns!  Is this what I have to look forward to?  A life of painful sitting, and no more lounging for hours on end?  That is absurd!  Maybe I have an unusually large rear end bone or something - because I can't imagine that this is normal!  I'm going to have to invest in some of those inflatable pillows to carry around with me whenever I have to sit down somewhere!  Maybe they make some kind of booty enlarger that I can wear like panties that will make sitting more comfortable! 

Don't worry though - the painful chair at the nail salon will not deter me from going there in the future!  Sorry, honey!

Plateau!

It definitely happened this week - I have plateaued!  I knew it would happen, and I think I'm okay with it, but it is a little frustrating also.  On Monday morning I weighed in at 204.8, which isn't even a one pound difference from last week.  I think this is my cue to add some type of exercise, darn it!  Can't I hire someone to exercise for me?!?!?!? 

This probably won't be a very long entry, because I don't really like anyone or anything right now, and it has nothing to do with my surgery or eating.  I just haven't taken my Prozac in a week, and that is because I ran out of it, and just haven't made the time to go get some.  Well, after ending up in tears for the last couple of days for no reason at all, I made the time today to go and get my meds!  I can't stand the fact that I really need that medicine, but apparently I do, at least that is what my family will tell you! 

Back to the exercising thing - we did ride our bikes to the grocery store on Sunday, which was probably a 3 mile ride at least.  It was fun, and we all did a great job.  Geoff had Mary in the kid seat on his bike, and on the way home from Publix I had 2 gallons of milk, a four-pack of protein shakes, a 12 inch sub sandwich, Mary's sippee cup, and about 4 containers of Crystal Light mix in my basket.  Yes, I was a little off balance a couple times, but did make it home without incident!  Yay me. 

Abby and I will hopefully start riding bikes to school soon, so that will help with the exercise, and I really want to get our dog, Raina, trained to walk with me.  Hopefully those things will happen in the next few weeks, because another week of no loss will really start to frustrate me. 

I really don't have any more to write tonight, and I just want to go night night!  I'll update you on some other things later in the week after the Prozac kicks in! 

Stuff That Fits

I finally bought some clothes last Friday that fit a little better than what I have been wearing! I bought 3 pairs of knit capris, 2 pair of shorts and 2 shirts. Before the surgery my pants size was a 24, but I was actually able to buy my pants in the normal women's section and bought a 16/18. Now, I know that probably wouldn't be true if they weren't knit with a drawstring waist, but still, I have a size 16/18 pant hanging in my closet! Woop woop! The 2 shirts I bought are only 1 size smaller than what I used to wear, and I know I could go down another size, but I'm so used to wearing things so big up top that it is hard to buy something more fitted. I will have to slowly work into that!

I am really starting to see the difference in the mirror and it feels really good! It is a weird thing though, because to me I am so small, but I know the world still sees a big plus-sized girl. So I'm walking around acting all skinny even though I'm really not. I'm telling you I think this surgery and everything that goes with it is psychologically harder than it is physically hard. I think someone should do some studies on that!

I weighed myself this morning and my good friend the scale said 205.5. That is only a 3 pound difference from last week, but I am not discouraged. How can I be discouraged when I have lost 48 pounds in 12 weeks? Okay, so I was hoping to be closer to that 199 mark, but it will be here soon enough!

It's Monday

I think this whole thing is starting to sink in a little.  In the last couple of days I have noticed a change in the way I look in the mirror.  I was putting lotion on my legs yesterday and noticed that they look a little smaller, too.  When I was at the Mayo Clinic for some appointments on Friday morning I had a whole lot more room in the waiting room chair than I used to have.  This is pretty cool! 

I will have to get a few new clothes this week, because I had a ladies brunch to go to yesterday morning, and realized that I only have 4 shirts and 2 pairs of shorts that I can wear into public right now.  I stood in my closet for a long time hoping that something would appear that would fit me a little better, but no, I had to put on my over sized, cinched up shorts and a shirt that just hangs off of me.  The shirt has elastic at the bottom, but the elastic doesn't even fit anymore.  It just hangs down - it is crazy!  I'm also curious to see what size I am right now.  So, I think that Wednesday when Mary goes to school I will go see if I can't find some inexpensive items to buy for the time being. 

The scale said an amazing 208.6 this morning, which totally blew me away!  Never in my wildest dreams  did I think I would be here this quickly.  I am amazed, and so blessed and thankful that this is happening to me!  I know I am very lucky to have the means to have had this surgery, and I try to remind myself that every time I'm frustrated about food right now.  I don't think I have been this weight since before I was married, which was 11 years ago this Friday, by the way!  Wow that is a long time!  I keep catching Geoff looking at me, which is totally cool!  And Abby is even constantly commenting on my weight loss.  She told me that her dance teacher said the other day that I am getting skinny, and I could tell that she was so proud of that.  That means so much to me that my husband and daughter are proud of the progress I'm making!  I'm also receiving wonderful texts, and emails from a lot of you that are so sweet, and I appreciate it so much - thank you!  My cousin told me the other day on the phone that I even sound skinnier - that cracked me up, and is totally awesome!  Thanks, Nik!

I still definitely have moments of food drama - the brunch I mentioned earlier was pretty hard at the beginning, but after I ate what I could and was full I was fine.  I'm figuring things out, and able to go do things now without worrying so much about what I will eat.  I went to Panera with some fellow dance moms on Saturday morning while the girls were rehearsing and I got a spinach and Swiss souffle - I ate about 3/4 of it and was pretty full.  A few weeks ago I probably would've passed on that opportunity, because the thought of being around all the pastries at Panera gave me major anxiety, but I'm really learning to deal with it.  I wonder what my blog will say a year from now?  I can't wait to find out! 

Rainbows and ponies all around!!  :)  I better go to bed before that changes!